I am 4 yrs older than you and feel similarly. I experimented in high school but after a horrible event, I shut that part of my life off... recent came out to my wife that I was bi, and she fully supports my experimentation. I have kissed men, I have given oral. I have played with toys anally, but have never had a man in my bottom. Would love to though. Looking for someone to become friends with first... perhaps we can do coffee and get to know each other, share thoughts and hopes... and when the time is right perhaps more.
I do consider myself a bottom, but will top. I too like the look of a cock in porn and have as many fantasies about it as I do pussy. I am married and would never go all the way gay... i like breasts too much... lol. Safe sex and discretion is paramount to me. Trust is huge